I love meeting new people. I love my friends, family, the people I work with, just about everyone Ive had the pleasure of knowing because people just amuse me in so many different ways. People make decisions everyday that affect who they are and where their life is heading...and I feel like I don't make a lot of decisions at all. I sometimes wonder if I am just walking around waiting for something to slap me in the face. I have a good job and a life that I love...but there's got to be something else outside of meeting the "one" and getting married for the purpose of having children. I have hobbies and a pet who I am attached to more than I should be. I have more fun than I feel like I should be having because everyone else around me seems so serious about what they do outside of work...even the single friends. I feel more grateful than lost. So I can't help but wonder when the people that have their shit together more than I do in any facet of life seem to keep failing at either relationships...promotions...just personal happiness and satisfaction. I'm not the one saying they are failing...they are saying they are failing at one thing or the other and I just watch and try to lend a hand if asked.
So what is it these days? Is no one ever going to be satisified because we see things everyday that we don't have? What does it take for my generation to finally say to themselves more than once in a blue moon that they are satisfied. What they have accomplished is enough for now and just be thankful for what they do have. I live in an apartment, have the same job doing the same shit...somehow make less than I use to due to corporate greed...recently single...and not actively not looking...but I still wake up everyday thinking I'm lucky. I'm amused to listen to the people in my life who have investments, and houses, and great jobs with future advancement opportunities to give them more job security later, maybe kids, maybe married, etc. All the things people say they want if they don't already have them. These are the people who pick out how they are failing. So what does that say about the life I have created for myself? I sometimes wonder...but what I do know with 100% certainty, is that when I stop having fun...back to the drawing board.
LL
